I'm bacccccccccccccckkk!

Well, hello everyone! I'm back! After nearly a whole year of not blogging (well, that's not strictly true) I've decided to bring back my favourite 'Cheryl Wants Cake' blog so I can share my tales of motherhood, wedding planning and just general fun cake stuff. In the 10 months since I posted on here, I've become a mummy to my beautiful daughter Matilda! Whilst I knew I was pregnant when I last posted, I couldn't share it with the blogging world because it was still very early days for us and we wanted to keep it a secret until our 12 week scan. Well, now here we are with a little cheeky 3 month old Tilly! I kept a pregnancy blog and also started a blog about Tilly which I found difficult to keep up in the early days because...well, newborns are exhausting! Now Tilly has a regular bedtime and nap times, I have my evenings free to blog (as well as a million other things!) and do lots of wedding planning which I know you all enjoy reading about.

As some of you may well know (it's not like I ever talk about it right?!) Michael and I have set the date for May 27th 2014 so with only 5 months to go until we get married, I am panicking slightly! I still don't have a dress, the reception is almost finalised but there is still so much to do! So I'm going to enjoy doing some more research in the coming months and sharing it with you all. Life has been amazing in 2013, I have learnt many lessons about myself and what I can achieve, I've grown up and become a mother which is the best job in the world. I've lost family and friends along the way this year but I've also gained a whole new group of friends who have been my rock in the past few months. I'm not ashamed to admit that my emotions have suffered in recent time BUT the only way is up. We have a beautiful little girl and soon I get to marry the man who I consider my soul-mate, after many many years together.

So I'm officially BACK in the blogging world, hopefully posting twice a week. To finish this post here are some cute Tilly pictures because let's be honest, you never see enough of her do you....xxx

Berlin!

So Michael and I came back yesterday from a wonderful 4 day trip to Berlin! I am truely exhausted now, we did a lot of sightseeing and walking but unfortunately because of travelling etc, we only really had 2 full days there so we didn't get a chance to see everything and there was sooo much to see!

We stayed in a lovely apartment close to central Berlin which had a little kitchen so I was lucky enough to have Michael cook us some lovely German food every night and it was nice to stay somewhere homely. It also had a computer and little desk too as well as a huge TV (although German 'Who wants to be a millionaire' is hard to follow if you don't know the language!)

 

In terms of sights, we made sure we saw the Berlin wall memorial, which was very moving and we took time to read the memorials and plaques there and take it all in. We visited the famous Reichstag building which pretty much had no tourists whatsoever, we were very lucky! We spent an afternoon in Berlin zoo and aquarium also, which apart from Michael hurting his head, was lots of fun! We also visited the German technic museum whilst we were there as well as famous landmarks such as the Brandenburg Tor-very grand!

Berlin itself is a great city, VERY easy to get around with their travel system, it was very romantic with lots of snow so LOTS of snuggling up occured (which I am not complaining about) and whilst it was cold, it was a manageable temperature and we sampled some German food-Michael in particular was very impressed with currywurst! We will definitely go back one day for a few more days because there is so much to be seen. I have a few more days off before I go back to work so intend on doing some serious relaxing :)

Outside our apartment was also my favourite 'Photoautomat' machines which you only get in certain cities in Europe, we had lots of fun posing for this vintage photobooth style strip, which is up on our wall already!!

xoxo

Hello February!

Blogging for me has gone on the back burner at the moment and for that, I'm sorry! I feel like I am neglecting my poor little Cheryl Wants Cake world. I have been feeling really under the weather the past few weeks, a mixture of 2 colds (in the space of a week), my trapped nerve and feeling sick. It's all been rather poo but I am starting to feel a bit human now! 

February so far has been good, I only have one more week at work and then it's off to Berlin for 4 days whooo! I can't believe it has come around so quickly and it will all be over soon and back to reality! I haven't done much researching this time on what we can do whilst we're out there because I think it will be nice just to explore but a visit to the zoo is top of our list! We go from 17th-20th Feb!

I have been trying to make some positive changes in my life in 2013 and I have been getting a hold of my anxiety pretty well. Don't get me wrong, it's still there but life is so busy and I am occupied enough that I have been feeling pretty good. I am now on the waiting list for some counselling, after loads of phonecalls and a phone interview, finally it is all in progress! I am getting a short course of Cognitive Behavioural Therapy which I actually had about 4 years ago. It is pretty useful for handling anxiety although I don't know whether it will help long term, I will have to wait and see!

I have also started physiotherapy which is great as I have been plagued by this trapped nerve for a few months now. Due to all these various complaints and my tired level plummeting, I am still keeping part time hours at work for now although I will need to make a decision soon as to whether I want to carry this on.

Michael and I have been doing some SERIOUS sorting/ebaying/throwing away of stuff in our room the past few weeks and it has been lovely to do some de-cluttering. We are moving loads of stuff around and also re-decorating our bedroom. Currently it is an unslightly barbie pink from when I painted it at 17 but we really want a change and a slightly maturer and dare I say less girlie (although there will still be a lot of pink!) colour scheme. We are steering towards bluey purple colours at the moment and looked at a few samples-we just can't decide! I am leaving the whole job to Michael though-DIY is a man's job ;)

I shall leave with this lovely quote picture I found online! Have a great weekend everyone.

xoxo

25 facts about me

It's been a super long time since I have posted on my blog, massive apoligies! I have been busy, ill, tired, occupied...but hopefully I am back now!  I have seen the "25 facts" post on many blogs recently and thought I would do it myself! So here goes....

1.  I am a really fussy eater. I love beans but I can't eat Heinz. I can only eat tomatoes if they're hard, I hate soft ones. I hate softly cooked pasta-strange I know!

2. I don't really drink alcohol at all. I don't need it to have a good time plus I'm a horribly emotional drunk so it's best to leave it alone haha.

3. I am obsessed with the Back to the Future movies. I have the Blu Ray boxset which I watch a few times a year. I almost always watch it when they're on television too.  I pretty much know every line.

4. I met my wonderful Michael on a dating website. When he messaged me, I was just about to delete my account but decided to read it. 6 1/2 years later, here we are, very much in love!

5. I can only fall asleep lying on my stomach-I can only sleep on my back if it's light outside.

6. I have an extreme sweet tooth and pretty much eat cake every day. My stomach is paying for it haha!

7. I'm extrememly close to my Mum-we still go out, go on holiday together and do things together all the time, she is my best friend.

8. Michael cooks for us pretty much every night without fail-in 6 years I have cooked for him about 4 times.

9. I used to want to be a west end musical star. I travelled 2 hours to go to Sylvia Young Theatre School in North London every weekend when I was about 12/13. Thankfully that phase is over now.

10. I then decided I wanted to be a journalist-I graduated from Roehampton University in 2010 with a 2:1 in Journalism and News Media. Half way through I decided I hate journalism.

11. I have extrememly varied music tastes-I love 80's rock, 90's pop and at the moment I love One Direction, so much so I am seeing them live in April this year!

12. I loose everything and anything. So never trust me with anything precious of yours.

13. I always wanted to get married to my Prince Charming when I was younger but never thought I would meet anybody. I got engaged on 1st September 2012.

14. I don't really like being alone because I tend to reflect on life a lot more.

15. I have lived on a council estate all my life and hate when people play the sympathy card about having such a tough time-it really isn't that bad.

16. I went to an all girls private school from 11-16 and absolutely hated it. The day I finished in 2003 and walked out the door was one of the best days of my life.

17. I love studying and I used to like exams too. I actually enjoyed taking my GCSE's.

18. I am more in control of my anxiety and depression now than I ever have been in my life.

19. I love Hello Kitty, even at age 26. I even used to have a HK phone and was very sad when it broke!

20. My secret fantasy is winning X Factor and being a worldwide superstar haha.

21. I love planning trips and I always have to have something in my diary planned for a future date. I love researching new places to go.

22. I wish I was Zooey Deschanel. Her fashion sense, her hair...she is perfect.

23. I read quote websites pretty much every day because they lift me out of sad moods.

24.  I was born on the 25th September 1986, weighing 6lbs 13 onces and with no hair haha!

25. Many of my closest friends I have met through the internet and a mutal love of various celebrities.

xoxo 

Life according to Instagram #7

1. Beautiful candle holder

2. New cosy cat jumper from Ever Ours

3. Michael's birthday surprise

4. My first ever pair of shoes!

1.Fitting room posing

2.Beautiful wedding dress in shop window

3. Birthday steak!

4.Yummy dessert from Baltic

1.My new blue collar dress from H&M

2. New favourite mug

3. Mega snowy outside my school

4. Braving the snow!

Apolgies again for a long gap in blog posts-my mind has been super busy :) but I am hoping to do a few more blog posts next week. Looks like I may be snowed in this weekend so I will have to busy myself with films, drinking hot chocolate and being cosy in my oneise (currently have 3, want another 1). I haven't been up to much other than working and also celebrating Michael's 30th birthday which was lovely! It's only 4 weeks until we go to Berlin and I'm SO excited. Going to start thinking soon about getting some euros and travel insurance etc. I am still really loving my new working hours and feeling a lot happier right now. Going to have a curry tonight and just watch some television-LIFE IS EXCITING.

Happy weekend all

xoxo

Sunday update!

Wow, it has been a while since I have blogged-it has been a busy week in Cherbear land and I haven't really felt like writing but life is pretty good right now! My new working hours are fantastic and have so far really helped eased my stress. I have used my afternoons off to relax and have some time to myself as well as doing lots of sorting out and a little bit of baking. I made a huge red velvet cake on on Tues and whilst it doesn't look amazing, it was actually quite tasty!

It is Michael's birthday on Tues and he is turning the big 30! He doesn't want much of a fuss but I have bought a few little decorations and I am going to pick him up a birthday cake. I have made him a little powerpoint presentation about Berlin seen as though there is nothing physical I can actually give him yet! We go 5 weeks today and we're very excited to visit lots of museums and and eat pretzels!

We went for an early birthday meal today as Michael and I are both working on his birthday sadly so I wanted to treat him to something nice this weekend. He chose a restaurant called 'Baltic' which I think I have mentioned on my blog before. It specialises in Polish and Russian food although this time we both went for the steak as it really is amazing. I used my Tastecard for 50% off and ended up saving over £20! The card itself only cost £29 so I would highly recommend it to anyone! For pudding I had the chocolate mousse and Michael had pear and ice cream...tasty times.

I can't believe Michael is about to turn 30! He was only 23 when I met him and time has just flown by. On his actual birthday I think we're just going to get a takeaway and watch a film. Hope you've all had a wonderful week!

xoxo

Life according to Instagram #6

1. Coolest sponge ever-it's a giant lolly!

2. Loving my new jumper from H&M

3. Gorgeous owl hot water bottle-only £5!

4. Getting ready for our Berlin holiday

1.Yummy breakfast

2.Cosy in my gingerbread men pjs!

3.Christmas cookie candle, another bargain at £4

4.New cat t-shirt from H&M

1.Going to see the Hobbit with Michael

2.New year cake and ice cream

3.Michael's flight simulator experience

4. Funny sign for the kitchen!

Wishing you all a lovely weekend! Had a nice day today with Michael-we went shopping in Westfields, had a yummy lunch at GBK and Michael also did a flight simulator experience which I bought him for Christmas! Back to work on Monday....

xoxo

Keep calm and stay positive! x

So I haven't sat down and done a deep and meaningful blog post for quite some time, which isn't like me! I like to use my blog as an outlet for my feelings-I always find that I can express them through writing much easier than I can through speaking about them. I can honestly say right now I am feeling pretty content and I had a very lovely Christmas and New Year where everything went smoothly. I have suffered from a few health problems of late-both mentally and physically. Of course physical pains are much easier to banish than those which lurk inside your mind. I have been referred to a physiotherapist for my pains in my side/back/shoulder-pretty much diagnosed as a trapped nerve but it just won't budge and it's been a good month or two now. It's an extrememly long waiting list so in the meantime, I am using a hot water bottle as I want to try and wean myself off using so many painkillers this year. I am no where close to being addicted but where as before, if I had a slight niggle or pain, I wouldn't think twice about popping some ibrofen or paracetomal and when I look back about how consistently over years, I was taking A LOT each week and mostly unnecessary, I decided to try and cut down. Don't get me wrong, I will take them when I have an awful headache but I want to try other things first.

'Mentally' I am doing pretty good although I have had a little blip in the depression department. I wouldn't even say I was depressed, I think unmotivated and stressed is probably a better description. I won't go into much detail here but there are few things that have made me feel this way and led me to cutting down my hours to part time at work, just for the meantime. I am in a place and time where I really do need my stress kept to the minimum and I think this helps me, particularly as I struggle to get out of bed in the morning. I know pretty much everyone feels this and yes, getting up early sucks but the feeling I have felt goes much deeper than that and is something I am trying to tackle. I have also been referred to a counsellor to help me through which is fantastic because for me, I feel like I am taking steps to making myself feel better. I need to be in a better place because 2013 is a big year for me. 

I have always been the type of person to be open and honest if I am depressed and I am not in any way ashamed to be feeling this way because I never wallow...I always try and do something about it. I am hoping with my free time in the afternoons, I can get more time to relax at home, get working on my book again and generally have some me time so I feel in a better place. I would like to do another home course if I can afford it-I shall have to see.

I have been trying to surround myself with as many positive events as possible and making sure I have a lot to look forward to-this to me is a coping mechanism. I always need to have something planned and I love being organised. I have a lot of fun things coming up in the next few months and that is keeping me smiling. I also want to get back into wedding researching because not only is it fun but we also want to try and save as much money as possible! We still hope to get married in 2014 but we do not know where life will take us in the next year or so, so we're not setting a date yet. We're visiting our favourite wedding destination of Arundel on the 16th March and we're visiting a wedding open day there so that we can get some idea of prices etc. Thankfully it is informal because at this stage, we just want ideas and want to take our time wedding planning. I have resisted looking at dresses for a few months now-although from time to time I see something in a magazine and it becomes my 'new favourite dress'. I have quite a few now!

So for the time being, I am doing pretty good and 2013 (granted it's only 3 days in!) is going well and I hope to continue to make myself a stronger person. As I said before I don't have any resolutions for this year but I do have some goals...

• To continue to help myself by taking control of my anxiety and depression
• To continue to save money for the future and to spend less on clothes
• To try and eat a little healthier 
• To try and be more confident and not let people intimidate me
• To try and spend more time with friends
• To keep taking vitamins and try to walk more
• To visit more places with Michael
• To give things a go and not give up so easily

 

 So, here is to a happy 2013 where I take control, I have a great feeling things will work out well...

xoxo

Hello 2013!

Happy new year everyone! Thanks to everyone that has read my blog this year, I am excited to blog in 2013!! I had a quiet new years, no alcohol, just stayed in with my pyjamas and ate lots of cheese. That is the best way to be! I may do a 'resolutions for 2013' post but to be honest, I don't have many...I have goals and wants and wishes and what not but I have had them for a while.

In between eating lots of cheese, spending far too long in onesies and watching about 50 films, I have purchased a few goodies in the sales and with some of my Christmas money/vouchers. I got a H&M voucher for Christmas-a store which is very hit and miss for me and when it's fantastic, their clothes can be wonderful but when they get it wrong...they get it VERY wrong. I must have looked in about 4 H&M's before I saw something I actually liked. I'm not particularly into the emo goth style (rails were full of skull prints, cross prints and lots of black) so I had to dig deep to find something wearable for me. Also their sizes come up small on me (or perhaps the cupcakes have taken their toll) so I mostly have to buy their size 16's! However I found a few cute bits that I thought I would share with you...

Kitty t-shirt £5.99

Navy jumper £14.99

Blue heart print dress £12.99

Black furry mittens-£4

 

I also got this super cute Owl hot water bottle from Accessorize, reduced from £18 to £5-it smells like vanilla too!

 I have a lot of nice things coming up in the next few months-Michael's 30th birthday is on the 15th and on the 13th I am taking him out for a nice meal at a fancy restaurant! I am also getting a nice new haircut at the end of the month (fancy a change-any ideas for hairstyles, please share!) and in February, Michael and I are going on holiday to Berlin! We've also just booked a little weekend away in Arundel to look at wedding venues. So whilst I am a little anxious about returning to work (although finishing at lunchtime is going to make things a lot easier for me) I am keeping my mind focused on happier things.

5 more days of holiday left-boo hoo!

xoxo